角落

離開綠風草園，一邊開車一邊思考三天下來累積的課後議題，也許是累積的疲憊累了武裝，又或是黑夜裡的燈光過於刺眼，思緒弔詭地一閃，Don' t Cry的吶喊與細膩忽地衝進腦海。

對向的車燈宛如隨意揮擺的仙女棒，回憶快速倒帶，想起淡水河畔；想起那海；想起第一次認真欣賞搖滾樂；想起豆子。

豆子。與我相同星座的豆子。清晨在淡水河邊笑著看我對早起的阿公阿婆大喊早安的豆子。與當時的我相同長直髮的豆子。深夜一點堅持要看我燙壞了的卷髮的豆子。讓我把玩他不肯讓人觸碰的長髮綁成史艷文的豆子。細心引導我認識抒情搖滾樂的豆子。說我是個好女孩的豆子。

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Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be allright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
An don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight

豆子，從不多問我什麼，豆子，總是隨我想做什麼。想起了豆子。想起了那海，想起了一個人的19樓，想起了只有自己知道的歡喜悲傷。想起了記憶底一年過一年；歲月裡無聲的生命的品嚐。